All New Things

I anticipated taking on a lot of new things when I moved to London. LondonPaying almost double for a grande Americano at Starbucks was one I was prepared for.  Cleaning Day was not.  But when you live in a shared space compromise plays an important part of establishing a healthy, happy living environment.  So it looks like my cleaning day falls on Saturdays.

Still doing the healthy eating thing.  It actually hasn’t been as challenging as I thought it would be.  The past week I’ve eaten the most delicious healthy homemade meals all for about £4 each.  I had to get creative because London is expensive and I have to pinch pennies (pences?) if I’m going to survive.  So far I think I’m doing OK.  The biggest challenge is finding healthy snacks to eat and resisting the cookies and cakes that I’m always craving.  But at least as far as the meals are concerned, I don’t have to worry too much about doing the actual cooking.  Yay!  I will do a post about a week of fabulous healthy dinners soon.

I had my first official week of classes and I think I’m really going to enjoy this first semester.  I’m still job and internship hunting.  My social life seems to be picking up as well.  Bowling was a lot of fun.  Also went to the cinema for the first time.  Did you know they don’t serve butter for your popcorn in movie theaters??  I was appalled.  But at least I know for next time that I have my choice between sweet or salty popcorn.

Because of workload and job/internship hunt I may have to scale back to weekly blogs for now because things are getting busy.

But I think it’s a good problem to have.

Outfit of the Day (#OOTD)

Shirt – Forever 21

Faux Leather Skirt – Forever 21

Tights – Primark

Blazer – Primark

Sunglasses – Michael Kors

The Good Stuff

Sunday starts a new week.  And with that will come a new video – Yay!  But since it’s the first day of Summer I thought I’d do a blog post today and talk about the good stuff.

First of all, I just need to say that I’m getting so much better at acknowledging the good stuff and letting it outshine the bad.  I used to wallow in self-pity like nobody’s business but now my bounce back is a lot quicker and I just have to pat myself on the back for that.  It’s not easy – it takes work for me to stay positive especially given my circumstance.  I totally tip my hat to the people who are just naturally fake sunny but at least I can admit that negativity and  I go way back and can recognize that about myself.

Anyway, here’s the good stuff I want to focus on – I’ve already talked about getting into Grad School, getting a partial scholarship and losing 10lbs.  Yay!

How about I checked my Youtube channel today and realized I’d gone from having 285 subscribers to 315 in about the course of a week?  (Maybe a little longer but I hadn’t checked in awhile so I can’t say for sure.)  That’s awesome to me.  Soon enough I’ll reach my first milestone (500 subbies) and maybe then I can do my first giveaway – wooo!

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What else can I be happy about?

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Oh, yes, my hair is finally growing!  I’ve been working really hard to get some length and recently I took out my braids and I can see progress!  I’m so excited.  I know there’s this video trend going around where Youtubers are reminding us that outer beauty isn’t as important as inner beauty.  Nevermind the fact that most of these Youtubers range from “super cute” to “super hot,” it’s still a good message and I get that.

I know it’s supposed to be about how you feel about yourself and knowing your own self-worth and having confidence and high self-esteem.  I am re-teaching myself all of that.  But I’m not going to pretend like I don’t look at myself in the mirror and think, “Hey there high cheekbones, you would look even hotter with just a dab concealer and blush,” Or, “What’s up brown eyes?  A little eyeliner will make those eyes pop even more.”  I like my face.  But I also like make up.  So I will continue to learn to use make up on my face.  While I am working on my inner beauty I will continue to enhance my outer beauty.

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Also,  I like having hair that is long enough to offset the size of my head.  So I will celebrate seeing my hair grow.  Yay for natural hair!

Regarding work:  I’ve been making a conscious effort not to complain about working in retail.  It’s not helping my situation.  Instead it shines a negative light on what I don’t have.  Which only attracts more negative feelings.  I found that when I focus on simply being happy to have a job I notice I can get through a workday more easily.  I don’t go home as tired as I used to and I have the energy to write or make Youtube videos.  It’s been a nice switch.

But recently, my hours were massively cut.  At first I was a little annoyed and anxious about how that would affect my ability to eat.  Then I realized this wasn’t necessarily a setback but rather a set up.  I needed that reminder that I’m not supposed to be in retail.  And so with this extra free time I’ve been able to catch up on my writing and videos (which helped me get from 285 subbies to 315) and I’ve also been able to job hunt and work on scholarship essays.  Because I’m still applying for scholarships so that I can go to school in the fall.

Speaking of which – I’ve entered this scholarship competition.   It’s a ‘no essay’ competition – so it’s basically a random drawing.  But the more sponsors I have the more entries I can submit into the drawing which will increase my chances of wining.  If you click the link below you can become a sponsor and help my chances of getting this amazing scholarship.  Is it a long shot?  Probably.  But that’s what I said about getting to London in March – look what happened?

So please click the link – become a sponsor and pass the link on to your friends.

https://www.gotchosen.com/en/scholarship/sponsor/DawnMelissa

Thank you!

I won’t acknowledge the bad stuff today.  I won’t wallow in self-pity. I won’t get angry at the little things that normally annoy me.  I will simply breathe and appreciate what I do have.  There’s so much more to be thankful for.  I know there are many more miracles and Blessings on the way and I look forward to them.

Everything in time.

Hope everyone is having a fantastic weekend.

About Grad School | I Got A Scholarship!

In my last video, “Half Year Assessment” I mentioned that I’d gotten into a Postgraduate school in London to study for a Master’s in Media Communications.

I didn’t mean to do this but I kind of glossed over this bit of news in favor of making the point that 2014 is half over and I still have so much more work to do.

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Sigh.

I have a habit of doing this.  I focus on the future and I don’t always allow myself to live in the present.  I also don’t give myself enough credit sometimes.  Also, I focus on the negative instead of the positive way too often.  I hate to admit this but I tend to be a “glass half empty” type of person and it’s such a bummer because I like to think of myself as a “silver lining” type of person.

In this case I really let myself down by not sharing the news of my acceptance into Grad School sooner.  I didn’t even really give myself a chance to celebrate, instead I immediately started worrying about the tuition cost and doing scholarship research.  Not to mention I never went long without thinking of my massive ‘To Do’ list and the other things that still needed to be checked off.

The funny thing is one of my New Year’s Resolutions was to be less hard on myself and to give myself a little credit.  I’ve accomplished a lot over the past few months.  No – I’m not a homeowner or a wife or mother and I haven’t sold that first screenplay or even gotten published yet but that doesn’t take away from the things that I have done.  I need to remember that.

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The truth is I’m ecstatic to have gotten accepted into school.  I’m thrilled.  I’m truly truly excited because honestly one of the reasons why I’d put off even applying for so long was because of fear of rejection.  But I didn’t get rejected.

They said “Yes!”

So…yay!  For real, Yaaaaaaay!  I got accepted into Grad School.  In London!  I’m so so so happy and grateful and thankful and all that good stuff.

Also, I’ve been awarded a merit scholarship.  Again, my mind is blown because I had to write an essay in order to be considered for the scholarship and I’d put it off for a long time because essays totally scare me.  But apparently they must’ve liked what I had to say because again – they said, “Yes!”

The scholarship doesn’t cover my full tuition but every little bit helps.

I still have a long way to go to getting to London though.

There’s a $2500 fee (School Registration + Visa application) that needs to be taken care of before I can even think about booking a flight.

And I have about 6 weeks to get that together.

Oh, I do like to hold things until the last minute, don’t I?

Well, I still work in retail so it looks like I’ll have to try fundraising again.  My last Go Fund Me campaign was a success.  I’m still so grateful to all the people who contributed and helped me get to London back in March.  I did not get the internship with MTV but I’m still happy that I made it as far as I did.

Now I want to try again.

So I’ll start my new Go Fund Me campaign in the next couple of days.  I hope you’ll check it out and perhaps consider donating.

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A year in London feels like a dream.  But nothing is impossible so here I go again – chasing the thing I want most.  London.

Once again it feels like it could be within reach.