Officially a London Student

After the chaos of my whirlwind orientation day settled down I had a chance to collect my thoughts and the realization that I’m actually back in school finally hit.

London

I’m experiencing at least 50 different shades of anxiety, nervousness and fear but overall I’m excited to have yet another opportunity to go back to school and also explore another new city.  hashtag blessed =)

London is amazing.

I try very hard not to look around in wonder like a tourist but sometimes it simply can’t be helped.  I’m still adjusting.  Haven’t figured everything out yet and I’m not quite ready to give up my trademark shorts and sheer shirts but I’m sure I’ll find a way to keep part of the old me and somehow blend it with the new me to come.

London

Classes start this week.

Already I have a sneaking suspicion that life is about to get truly hectic for the next few months.  I’m OK with that and I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to handle it.  But this won’t be like undergrad or musical theatre school.  This time around I’ll actually have to show up for class (sober) and do the work.

Also, I have to maintain a B average.  Not that I ever had bad grades in school but it’s one of the first things they stressed during orientation so I’m assuming they take that sort of thing pretty seriously around here.  It’s a good thing though because I definitely slacked off way too much at NYU.  I plan to make up for it this time around.

I do hope I won’t get too busy to keep up with my blogs and Youtube videos.  I truly hope there will be time to fully enjoy London.  Speaking of which, it looks like bowling and salsa dancing lessons may be in my immediate future.  Additionally, I may have found a free outdoor bootcamp to attend on weekends.  And I managed to find a Black hair supply store as well as a Black hair salon right near where I live.  Yay!

Let’s see what else is in store for me.

 

Outfit / #OOTD

Sweater – The Limited

Scarf – Primark

Cut Offs – Macys

Tights – Primark

Common Black Girl | Common White Girl Tag

In lieu of doing two separate videos for these tags I just thought I’d combine them into one.

Please Comment, Like and Subscribe to my channel!

And don’t forget to share!

How to Kill Your EX | A Video Collab with GraceyMae

How to kill your exHey guys!  Here’s a new funny sketch for you featuring fellow Youtuber Graceymae!  “How to Kill Your Ex”

Click Here:

Be sure to comment, subscribe and Share!  And Don’t forget to show Graceymae’s Youtube Channel some love!

 

How To Deal With Condescending People

I know it’s Mother’s Day – Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers!!!  Here’s a video that’s completely unrelated to Mother’s Day.  Hope you enjoy it!

Condescending people are the WORST!  Here are a few ways to deal with them.  Please check out Dawn Melissa Vlogs on Youtube.  If you like what you see please Subscribe and Share!

Also, if you like movie reviews and fitness tips I’ll be writing them for Trials N Tresses!

BACK IN THE GROOVE

My trip to London kind of threw me off for a bit…but I think I’m finally getting back into my routine.  Here’s How:

Hard Water

I take long

piping hot showers

in the dark

I close my eyes

and let the water tap

tap tap tap

all over and the rhythm clears my mind

and the steam clears my mind

and the darkness helps me focus

brings to light truths I can’t otherwise see

and I see truths

even when I don’t want to

even when I’m not looking

even when I try to convince myself over and over

truths, nonetheless, are revealed

clues jump out at me from time to time

begging me to wake up

begging me to pay attention

and yet instead I get caught up in a

whirlwind of strange languages

I think I’m special because I got this far

and I don’t see the danger

and I ignore the danger

and I forget how arrogant I used to be

and I forget how confident I used to be

not lucky, but deserving

because I used to have a higher self-esteem

and somewhere between this year and last

that friend and him

I lost me

Thank God for long hot showers

Thank God for nice hot showers

Thank God for this steam and this tap

tap tap tap

drops of water to remind me that

I am fine as I am

I am tall as I am

I am fucking beautiful

as I am

and I see everything

the fog has cleared – I see everything

the steam rises – I see everything

the lights come on and I see

my skin, boiled from too many hot showers

singed from too many burns- from too many lies

remains flawless

un-aged

unchanged

I am not ruined despite everything

and I will pass that wisdom down down down

tap tap tap

I am drenched – I am saturated – I am satiated

I’m hurt and wounded and angry

I’m – tap tap tap – wet

and mentally I’m totally fucked

but that’s how it is – that’s how we do

we get lost and dirty and after we get burned

we go wash it all off

tap tap tap

and do it all over again

 

“Jealous” Beyonce Official Music Video

For all the times you were “that girl” at the party because you had too much liquid courage…

Repent. Release. Repeat.

Daily Prompt: Paying the Bills

Find a Job You Love

In this economy I know I should be grateful to be employed….and I’m happy to be able to pay my bills yada yada yada..

But do I have a job that makes me do my “happy dance” when I get out of bed in the morning?  No.

But I don’t hate my job.

I like the environment (when there are no customers acting like a-holes) and I like most of the people that I work with.  I work in customer service.  As someone who likes engaging with other people and likes to smile (when I’m genuinely in the mood, not when people need to feel comfortable, sorry but I do have resting bitch-face syndrome) you’d think Customer Service would be a dream job for me.  But it’s not.  And that’s because customers who get impatient because they have to wait in line and get pissy when things don’t go their way or  complain about the prices of items like I OWN the friggin store can be a real drag.

Just yesterday I have to suppress my laughter at this woman who asked if we had wrapping paper and when I pointed her in the direction of the wrapping paper she looked put out and said, “Oh.  I thought someone else could do that.  But Ok I’ll do it.”  like…WTF are you thinking?  Get your own wrapping paper you entitled B*tch.  How the hell does “someone else” know what kind of wrapping paper you want?

People are crazy.

Working in Customer Service is a trip.  Customers really walk in there thinking that the employees are uneducated or just beneath them so they treat us like crap.  Some of my strangest interactions have been with customers who are Black men (sorry but it’s true) especially when those Black men arrive with women or families that aren’t Black.  Like, they expect me to have an opinion or a reaction to that.

Brother, I don’t care who you’re banging.  I really and truly don’t.  You’re bald….

But yeah.  My job drives me crazy when I actually have to do it.  But I don’t drag my feet going in.  And I don’t think the job itself is soul-destroying.  If anything, it builds character.

So I have to mentally prepare myself before going to work.  I really have to psych myself up.

“This is the day that some amazing benefactor will recognize my talents and offer me a job that will more effectively utilize those talents.”

You never know what people will say or do that could affect your day, mood, spirit.  But I guess that’s how it is in anything.  Whenever you have to engage with someone you never know what you’re going to get.

Still….got my fingers crossed that I’ll have my dream job soon.

Any day now…

Daily Prompt