In my last video, “Half Year Assessment” I mentioned that I’d gotten into a Postgraduate school in London to study for a Master’s in Media Communications.
I didn’t mean to do this but I kind of glossed over this bit of news in favor of making the point that 2014 is half over and I still have so much more work to do.
Sigh.
I have a habit of doing this. I focus on the future and I don’t always allow myself to live in the present. I also don’t give myself enough credit sometimes. Also, I focus on the negative instead of the positive way too often. I hate to admit this but I tend to be a “glass half empty” type of person and it’s such a bummer because I like to think of myself as a “silver lining” type of person.
In this case I really let myself down by not sharing the news of my acceptance into Grad School sooner. I didn’t even really give myself a chance to celebrate, instead I immediately started worrying about the tuition cost and doing scholarship research. Not to mention I never went long without thinking of my massive ‘To Do’ list and the other things that still needed to be checked off.
The funny thing is one of my New Year’s Resolutions was to be less hard on myself and to give myself a little credit. I’ve accomplished a lot over the past few months. No – I’m not a homeowner or a wife or mother and I haven’t sold that first screenplay or even gotten published yet but that doesn’t take away from the things that I have done. I need to remember that.
The truth is I’m ecstatic to have gotten accepted into school. I’m thrilled. I’m truly truly excited because honestly one of the reasons why I’d put off even applying for so long was because of fear of rejection. But I didn’t get rejected.
They said “Yes!”
So…yay! For real, Yaaaaaaay! I got accepted into Grad School. In London! I’m so so so happy and grateful and thankful and all that good stuff.
Also, I’ve been awarded a merit scholarship. Again, my mind is blown because I had to write an essay in order to be considered for the scholarship and I’d put it off for a long time because essays totally scare me. But apparently they must’ve liked what I had to say because again – they said, “Yes!”
The scholarship doesn’t cover my full tuition but every little bit helps.
I still have a long way to go to getting to London though.
There’s a $2500 fee (School Registration + Visa application) that needs to be taken care of before I can even think about booking a flight.
And I have about 6 weeks to get that together.
Oh, I do like to hold things until the last minute, don’t I?
Well, I still work in retail so it looks like I’ll have to try fundraising again. My last Go Fund Me campaign was a success. I’m still so grateful to all the people who contributed and helped me get to London back in March. I did not get the internship with MTV but I’m still happy that I made it as far as I did.
Now I want to try again.
So I’ll start my new Go Fund Me campaign in the next couple of days. I hope you’ll check it out and perhaps consider donating.
A year in London feels like a dream. But nothing is impossible so here I go again – chasing the thing I want most. London.
Once again it feels like it could be within reach.
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